So What's New?

Let's see.





1. I got my nose pierced. I love it and wish I would have done it sooner. I like the nose screws





rather than the pins.











The pins fall out way too easily I think. I accidentally yanked it out though and developed a bump on the inside AND outside of my peircing. I got rid of the outside one doing sea salt soaks and I'm working on the inside one still. Kinda sucks because at the right angle it looks like a booger, although it's just my bump.



2. Jakob was seen by the Neurobehavioral doctor. He says because Jakob is so developmentally delayed (shoot me in the face) that is why we are seeing the behaviors we are. Jakob is three and a half but is according to the doctor functioning at the level of a two year old (#failureasamother). This is all classic textbook terrible two behavior. He wants to wait a year and revisit the issue. He feels that Jakob's speech will catch up in the meantime which will also lessen the tantrums and aggressive behavior. If in fact the aggressive behaviors have not gotten better in a year or so (#iwillbeinsane) we will start discussing medication. School will be VERY difficult for Jakob if he is still having the same impulse control problems and hyperactivity he has now. Some days I know we BOTH must feel like all I say is "Jakob, no, Jakob stop......Jakob find a corner!" He also ordered an MRI of his brain to see if his brain is structurally damaged at all from the prenatal drug and alcohol exposure.....oh joy. The MRI was on Friday and it was at Shands (#myfavoriteplaceSARCASM). Technically we could have had it done elsewhere (because if you have read my blog you KNOW how much I really love Shands) but that would have entailed another at least three month wait to see another shrink....then wait for them to set up the....yada yada yada yada. I figured I would buck up and deal since Jakob is "healthy and normal" and if I thought for a second any of the people there were 1. Morons with no experience or 2. Going to kill my kid I would abruptly say thanks but no thanks and bail. I've done it before (nervousbreakdown#4). We had a hell of a time getting up there because Jakob has learned to unclick his chest strap(not the crotch strap) and pull his arms out of the straps of his carseat while Mommy is driving on I-75. *sigh* Well what Mommy DIDN'T know is that he leaned over and unclicked the belt FROM THE SEAT....YOU KNOW WHAT ATTACHES IT....TO THE CAR! I say "Jakob....HOW MANY TIMES DOES MOMMY HAVE TO TELL YOU TO LEAVE THAT CHEST STRAP ALONE.......!!" I start looking for a place to pull over and fix the thing when I realize I'm coming up around the entrance to the hospital and I slowed down when all the sudden I hear THUD...I think someone hit us. I look behind me and no one is there.....not even Jakob. His carseat is laying face down on the floor board...with him in it. I NEARLY have a heart attack, I'm crying and SITTING IN THE MIDDLE OF ARCHER ROAD with traffic behind me TOTALLY STOPPED. Inside I'm panicking but I held it together enough to turn on the hazards, jump out, flip the carseat over, get Jakob out (whom in the meantime is saying "MOMMY, MOMMY I UP....I UP...I UP MOMMY"!) I quickly strap him into Makily's carseat that IS still strapped in (thankfully he couldnt reach hers), and then pull into the parking garage. Mind you my heart is pounding out of my chest because I am convinced if Jakob DIDN'T already have brain damage he now does from flying out of the seat. We get out of the car and he jumps out acts fine, and says "Mommy I go!" (#kidsgoingtobethedeathofme) We get inside, the techs, doctors and nurses were ALL so kind and wonderful with him. I felt comfortable and wasn't really concerned about his safety like I imagined I would be. Once he went back I forced myself to walk around Shands. I was surprised that I didnt totally lose my cool as soon as I walked in the door. A couple of spots did spark memories..mostly bittersweet ones...some bad.....I took pictures and if I can get them up on this entry I will. We don't have results yet and I haven't called to try and get them yet either. I want to know and don't want to know at the same time.

3. Makily has the same nasty stomach bug the rest of us have all had. I got it have been down for four days (as down as I can get with two pooping kids and a hubby on the road for work). Makily started acting sickly last weekend but not really showing any symptoms...I could see it in her eyes. That sounds funny but I can see it...just trust me (#iknowimalittlenuts). She's full out water shooting out her butt (TMI..but i'm not sorry cause if you read my blog you should know by now). I'm coating it with butt paste and she's on just pedialyte right now. I'm hoping this is short lived on her. Tummy bugs have always been horrible on her for all the obvious reasons (she can't vomit) and well her belly is already a mess as a normal for her so....yeah it sucks. No seizures since the two in Feb and I'm hoping to keep it that way. She had a recent EEG that was AGAIN abnormal so I just hold my breath that the weird spikes will not lead to a seizure. She's on two meds now and under control so I'll take that.

4. I'm really tired. Mentally, physically, emotionally and every other way there is to be tired..I am.

More Tomorrow maybe....and maybe it will be something funny instead of well...this.