I'm coming back.

I am so ashamed that I have neglected my blog for so long.

I started facebooking and I think that may have been a reason for my blog block. That and so much of J's case is *almost* over that I honestly am afraid to even talk about it here for fear that someone will find this blog and something bad will happen.

Am I paranoid?

Most definitely.

I also have been in a weird place as far as Makily is concerned. I don't mean how much I love and adore the little booger. I mean the why's etc. I get to the point where I don't want to talk about all the sad crap and my blog HAS been my outlet so I have just stifled myself. I'm not sure why other then sometimes talking about it makes it more real maybe?

Not too much has changed since I last blogged. Like I said before J's case is FINALLY winding down but not without MUCH drama and headaches as always. My Christmas miracle would be that his adoption would be final by the end of this year. That is my DREAM. I sort of have a feeling it will be in January though and that makes me mad but yet again it's not something I can do anything about. Until his adoption is final I can't relax. I worry EVERY DAY that some family member will crawl out of the woodwork and say they want him. They tell me that's highly unlikely but I've heard that all before haven't I?

Makly is doing well and being as sweet as ever. They have been working with her on a tricycle at school and she seems to like the "regular" one as opposed to the adapted trike. The adapted one has all kinds of restraints and Makily hates being strapped into/onto anything. Add a helmet to that and she's M.A.D.! The regular tricycle is less restrictive and they said she giggles with it. Hoping to try and get her one like it for Christmas or soon after.

Today she's come down with a fever, nausea (with retching...oh joy), and diarrhea. I can't wait until the cold weather is over because it seems like we just can't keep her well during this time of year.

Much love blog family. Sorry I've been away but I promise, I'll be blogging more.