School starts tomorrow!

So I am actually excited about it.

I went to Orientation at the school on Friday and I really liked Makily's teacher. The class will ONLY have five students INCLUDING Makily so I REALLY love that.

I have her outfit all picked out and her back pack ready.

I'm happy and sad about it all at the same time.

I just can't believe my baby is FIVE.

SHE'S FIVE.

How is it possible?

It seems like just yesterday I was holding her in my arms, distraught and wondering what the hell our futures were going to look like.

Here it is five years later and I don't think I could have guessed my life would be where it is today.

Who knows what the future holds?

I sure don't.

That being said, I am trying to turn over a new leaf.

I have found that I need structure.

How crazy, I am 32 years old and need someone else to make me structured?

I swear in some ways I really am 13 years old!

I need a schedule, I need to have somewhere to be, and a time to be there.

I NEED THAT.

So I am planning on working out again and tanning. I will drop Makily off, drop J off at Granny's (as long as she'll let me lol...I'm sure she will) and then I am hitting the gym. I always feel better when I work out. ALWAYS.

I am trying to force myself to think positively about certain things again. Admittedly in some cases it's harder then others but continuing to stomp my feet and say how unfair it is, is just making me sad. I'm tired of being sad.

Will post pics in the morning of my baby's first day of kindergarten.

That sentence gave me a lump in my throat. *sigh*